the journal · verbatim · the deck is the written source of everything that happened
▸ MORNING — the riff, whole (two passes)
"Okay, cool. I do one. We get it. We're here. So.. I'm not gonna talk about this shit, but I am gonna talk about general thoughts before I open this up. There's I've mentioned this before, but there's just something going on when I'm sleeping. like my subconsciousness is reorienting. And it's really strange because like I had the spanda thing last week. Now it's like, it's a spiral. to the present, very much like the magnify skill. It's a loop of words. And the words lead to the present. I met this guy Shodin. He's. he does a Doc Husan. Dak Husan. It says anything. It's in Evanston. It's about 45 minutes away. I think I want to start doing that a couple times a week. He seems pretty legit, that dude. They also have session. which is very exciting, because I would like to do that. I think that would be my preference, my birthday present to me is a session. Session. Tim sits for five days. Um. Anyways, yeah, I feel good about that. I sent out, like, eight emails over the weekend to find somebody to be, you know, essentially like a guru for me, a master. But anyways, Shodin seems legit. I looked into him. I'm excited. So there's that. I have the sleeping and it's interesting, because when I'm sleeping, like, it's like, it's done. It just hasn't been realized fully yet consciously. It's the message I keep getting, I was getting that last week with the spanda thing, too. Now it's like, there's loop of thoughts. and they link to the present. Action in the moment, now. It's really simple. It's just.. Spiral into doing. Spiral into being. But I'm already on the spiral, right? So it's inevitable. It's the point. It's the feeling. I get. So that those are the updates for that. Let's go through this day one. So I really like this system. Let's talk about the deer, the refraction. deer times planetary seed, gentleness is the planting tool. The school office, the clerk, the form. Every threshold keeper is a wounded gatekeeper. Don't push the door. Please let me pass. The seat goes in softer mount of all. So she's already set up for school, and she was able to do that last week. So that's done. We could say that that's completed. Week one's mission be a human. So school set up, yesterday's update, I took her out, my daughter, Delilah, we took her out, we spent like 500 bucks on her. We got food. Me and my wife hung out. It was a good day. I did read the thing. I don't think it really influenced my day at all to be honest with you. Do it right out. Anyways, I was definitely very human. Yesterday was a good day. I relaxed. Today's refraction for the week and be a human courage, planetary seed. The mission today is one door, being a human is in a project this morning. It's a school office with your daughter's name in a hand. Yeah, we did it. We did it. I also sent an email to somebody I know there that might be able to help me get a new place to live. So that would be good. say, tense or do. The 48 hour rule starts counting today. This is great. I like the 48 hour rule. I read about a concept, which is basically it's a lot of what we're doing here. It's called reverse prompting, where the AI pulls the information out of you, which is the point of our system, by the way. You are extracting what I already have. So I'm just saying that out loud, because that should be clear. That's what magnify does. That is also what Mushin does. The goal is to extract. from me, not to generate, essentially, for the whole system. Hello. All right, today's Zulan, the planetary yellow seed. Tan is the manifestation station. The point in every 13 day arc where the thing becomes real and physical. What are the odds? It's funny how this always happens to turn out exactly how it should. Anyways. Today is step 10 of the blue eagle wave spell. Vision's 13 days. I wish I had that planned out. I suppose with the Zulken we should have a specific goal for every 13 day period, huh? It's like a little biweekly arc within the monthly arc. We'll think about this. Today, the energy does not reward starting big or thinking wide. It rewards putting small, complete things into the real ground. A name on a school form, an appointment that exists in a calendar, 10 messages that were actually sent. The challenge, the wizard, your antipote today's timelessness. The pole to drift and a tinkering word no clock runs. Refuse it kindly. Plant, close the soil, move to the next hole. Yes. Okay, this is good. So basically, I'm guessing here the power riff, like, how am I going to apply this to the day? Today's a manifestation day. We need to be putting small, complete things into the ground. So basically, my goal for today is pretty simple. For the first 90 minutes, it's about 10 right now. We got a late start today. I need to get Jennifer's email sequence and texting sequence out for the event. Then I have a one hour call with her from 12 to 1 p.m. From one to about four, I'm going to keep it fairly light today. I'm not going to go super insane with things because. I'm just kind of tired today, and I don't really feel like pushing to be totally honest with you. So there, from one to two, we'll call the state of Illinois, and we could get that part figured out, and then that'll be off the table. And then, honestly, from like two to four, I'm thinking like, I should just go get my parking sticker. So then we have the school thing figured out, we have the state of Illinois called Payment Plan started, and Sticker. The other thing I need to do between one and four, actually, this is really easy. It's just doing a. Secretary of State. I got to go to the DMB. I got to set up a DMB appointment rather, so I can get an ID. I need to update my ID on L too. So that's only going to take like 10 minutes, but let's put that on the list. That's all I'm really going to commit to doing today. Tomorrow. Tomorrow we're going to start Carmenta back up. We're going to get her fucking rolling tomorrow. We're gonna do that between 11 and 1. But anyways, that's it, we're gonna manifest these things that haven't been really the most annoying thing I've had to do for a long time. I've just had this shit to do for literally months, if not years. It's like my ID expired in March. It's August. So a lot of this stuff is just the shit that I'm really not good at doing. So how do I perfect what I do is the question today, the answer for that is going to be, we don't need to be perfected. We already are. Just ride the spiral to the moment. Now it's the only moment that matters. The death poem today is cutting a swath through thick dude grass, I set out. Smaller than I'd like a lot of them to be, but I guess that's okay. Today is you, which is courage. The old book signed goodbye, Hello, sos, it's first stride in this thick dude grass, courage is a small door today, a school desk with her name limit. Again, taking care of already. She's enrolled, she has her schedule and everything. The volume micates luck and violence is the answer. There's a lot of power in knowing what you're doing every single thing. You possibly can to win. I'm only a workman, I have no secret when I begin to think about the work you commanded. I guard my spirit, to not expend it on trifles. I fasted in order to set my heart at rest.'s what I see, volume negates luck, and violence is the answer. It's a very yang thing to a very yin. Very, very yin response. There's a power, a lot of power knowing that you're doing every single thing you can to possibly win. There's also a lot of power, knowing that you have everything that you'll ever need. And you've already won the moment that you stop thinking about it. So anyways, thoughts that it en me, we do not want to think. Today is day one. Let's see what the system brings."
"True, boys. You always saved my whole riff, like, every day. That is my journal. Do not fuck my journal up. Um, so cool. This is our first day doing it, so we're planning it. And I'm gonna talk through the emotions and things that are gonna hold me back, and then we could run magnify on it. And then, you know, we'll run the skill. It's our first date. I don't really know what the fuck we're doing yet. So really no problem with the Jennifer thing. It's just a matter of getting it done. So we just have to start that. It's not even that fucking hard. The Jennifer Cole, the biggest challenge I'm gonna have, and this is something that I was really going deep into yesterday. is structuring my workday like a monastery. It's like we have the bells that we added to BOD. What I really want is to treat my workday like my religion. My calendar is my sacred practice. Meaning, this is a monastery, man. This is not to be fucked around with. So, anyways, um, the the only challenge we're gonna have with Jennifer is she's gonna wanna talk for more than an hour. So I'm just gonna have to be like, yep. I'm out of one. I have to go... I have a state whatever. You know, we have the only to fucking do, and that's the most important thing. The only only only. The one o'clock thing is not only. Anyways, stick around DMV ID updated. That's all really easy, but I'm gonna do that. Um, the state of Illinois, like the... it's shame, I guess. I don't really know what it is. I don't really like talking to people. This is all the stuff that I don't like doing. There's no fear as much as I just don't enjoy it. it's like... I don't know. I avoid these things, these daily fucking stupid things. because I don't like them. Um, this should also be saved for beta, I would think. So I can do a lot of weird things. Like, I don't like going to the gas station by me because the guy knows who I am, and he talks to me. So I don't like doing that. So I will intentionally go to different gas stations now so that I don't have to talk to him. So I don't know what that is. It's annoying. I don't enjoy regular human. Like, I'm not a human. Regular human things. that the normal people do, I guess. I don't enjoy those. I just don't like it. It makes me feel uncomfortable, I guess."